12 weeks.

How far along? 12 Weeks, 
Total weight gain/loss: 3.5 lbs 
Maternity clothes? one maternity sweater.. not gonna lie.. when at home i LIVE in it. 
Stretch marks? No
Sleep: In the late afternoon I get pretty tired, but getting better sleeping through the night. 
Best moment this week: Our Ultrasound! Getting to see the little one!
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
Miss Anything? not having to take so many vitamins 
Movement: Not yet
Food cravings: Oranges, french toast, J Dawgs Hot dogs
Anything making you queasy or sick: at work the smell of mustard, snot in the back of my throat. 
Have you started to show yet: A little bump so far - basically looks like I ate a few too many cupcakes, which is typically the case
Gender prediction: Girl!!!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! at night before bed moody..
Weekly Wisdom: Take vitamins at night before BED! so not so nausea's through out the day!
Looking forward to: Getting a bigger bump & finding out the gender! :)

Been on a baby room CRAZE! pinterest by far has been the most addicting thing in my life. 

Christmas came early..

Our Christmas present came early...

It was the most exhausting week of my life.. thinking that maybe moving into our NEW house.. parents coming to visit within the first 2 weeks of moving.. then Thanksgiving with the BEST mother-in-law in town.. plus working like crazy to get some extra cash for Christmas. Of course i didn't think i was pregnant. Until, the great morning sickness started. Yup, i was one of those people who was in denial that i could actually be pregnant. 

Although we were completely shocked at first, we are both BEYOND excited to have a baby & feel so blessed!! 

So bring on the ginger ale, crackers, and mmmm oranges are just the best things right now. So i scheduled and initial consultation and first doctors appointment with a new OBGYN. she Confirmed. 

First MOST AMAZING THING is we heard the heart beat. It was just as if a train was coming into the room, so fast and just AMAZING! Then the nest day we got to get an ultrasound. SEEING IS JUST BELIEVING! 

  

heart's desire

George Bernard Shaw once wrote; 'There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it.' Clearly, Shaw had his heart broken once or twice."
As far as I’m concerned, Shaw had NO CLUE! 'Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. What're you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. 'Cause you are, and that pain you feel: it's life. The confusion and fear.. that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better. And that something is worth fighting for.
This year, I got everything I wanted and everything I wished for.. but, in a way, I lost even more.
BUT...Shaw was right: as we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better: money, things, babies..... we ignore what truly matters -- the simple things: like friendship, family, love. The things we probably already had.
So, Mr. Shaw thinks that getting your hearts desire is a tragedy? I say he’s wrong. I mean, clearly, Shaw never met Eric Rivet...
Yeah, losing your heart’s desire is tragic. But gaining your heart’s desire... It’s all you can hope for. This year, I wished for a family. To immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic… then give me tragedy. Because, I wouldn’t give it back for the world...

Knowing is better than Wondering.

 A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity by the way.... You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of knowing, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. 

It will happen... it will.

Going through these past couple of days was hard... and to think i wanted to not go to the doctors.. i didnt want to deal with what could be happening to me.. i was too HAPPY! I was sharing my JOY with the rest of the world already.. and to have that taken away..  scared me. Its hit me that i cant wait, it was not fair, to me or eric. I understand that there was nothing i could do, that it was in cards. But i didnt want to deal with it. i didnt want to find out that day.. just push it off. but i really thought abotu it.. and read that qoute from Mr. Franklin and it hit me. That knowing is better then wondering.  

There is nothing wrong with change, if it is in the right direction

No one believes that their life will turn out just kind of okay. We all think we are going to be great. And from the day we decide to BE great, we are filled with expectation. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go. And then... we get there. We all think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.


Do you ever wonder how long it takes to change your life? What measure of time is enough to be life altering? Is it four years like high school? One year? A summer? Can your life change in a month, or a week, or a single day? We're always in a hurray to grow up, to go places, to get ahead. And when you're young, one moment can change everything.. but If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different plan?

The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected, so when we're thrown a curve ball in life, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to plan B, and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need. But sometimes, sometimes what we need is a new plan..

We have to constantly come up with new ways to fix ourselves. So we change, we adapt. We create new versions of ourselves. We just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last

My life is changing… I don’t think it was suppost to change how it did in someways… I belive when people realize what choice I have made and understand the truth they will be happy me...... for us. And see the happiness i share with Eric everyday. To see the choices we are making to shape our future. The struggles we go through , the challenges, the unexpected... I pray everyday with all my heart for the strength to carry on when everything feels it has gone wrong… it wont be easy. It is never ment to be. But i see the light at the end of our tunnel. Soon, we will have what we have been working for. Our plan.. is just starting... I am the happiest I have ever been... what a change.

Lucky.

You ever heard the expression 'The best things in live are free.' Well that expression is true.' Every once in a while, people step up they rise above themselves sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short.
Life is funny sometimes.
It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of wise men, in the lyrics of a song and in the eyes of someone you love.
 And if you're lucky, if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.
I am a lucky one. I have at most points in my life... have had bad luck, the misfortune and the pain. But people can change..life can change.

You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or badluck or bad choices.
Or you can fight back.
Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.
Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase....The choices you make....and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of MY life is looking good.

Most of our life is a series of images. They pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever....

Friday Favorites

this weeks things are pretty random... but i hope you enjoy them

Favorite Movie:    Mrs. Doubtfire.. "ohhh HELLLOOO"

 

Favorite Decor Idea:

Favorite piece of advice: (from a tea bag)

Favorite Day Dream... :

Favorite Flower Arrangement:

Favorite person to make me laugh:

Have a great Weekend!

 

Every song ends but is that any reason not to enjoy the music?

You know I've got this theory, there are two kinds of people in the world. There are lyric people and music people. You know, the lyrics people tend to be analytical. You know, all about the meaning of the song. They're the ones you see with the CD insert out like 5 minutes after buying it, pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. Um, then there’s the music people, like Eric. Who could care less for the lyrics as long as its just got like a good beat and you could dance to it. I don’t know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I’m not, let me just say this. Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you, I believe that. And for me its usually song lyrics. 

Glitter In The Air"                

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

Dog days are ovvverr..

Happiness comes in many forms.
In the company of good friends,
in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dreams come true,or in a promise of hope renewed.
It’s ok to let yourself be happy,
because you never know how great that happiness might be.
Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life,
that you expect it to always be there,
because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only because it’s so unfamiliar,
and in that moment you realize you’re happy.

what makes me happy:

                                                               ERIC's

                                                                    RUFUS