So, today i woke up and found all my old journals from high school, and after high school.. i mean i graduated in 2004.. holy hell. ugh. and WOW... how my life as turned out to be just what i wanted.. and a little different then what was expected.
every year around my birthday in my journal i would write about what i want or learned about myself. almost like bullet points of what i believe. after reading these i thought i havent done this in 5 years... time to catch up.
*my life has done a complete 360 * my family are my WORLD, i would do anything for them * my little brother is my real best friend * i truly have married the man of my dreams * i DO have a huge heart, i try to look for good in people * im shy... no but really.. * i have high standards * i notice and understand people hate to see you/things change, even if it benefits you *i can get jealous *i can make you laugh *i still believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason *everyone in life will be broken at one point, and that is o.k. *i do make mistakes, still making mistakes, but regret nothing *i get overly excited * i learned your smile can change... looking at yourself with no front teeth changes a lot *i don't trust easily *music is equal to love * i break away from friends *i depend on eric a lot. (big change from being so independent) * im pregnant and already LOVE this child with alllll my heart. * i have priorities in my life and they are ever changing
life has changed from 16 to 25.. but still the Quote i loved then i still LOVE now.
"life is not a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences but rather a tapestry of event that culminate in a exquisite, sublime plan"
in other words, everything happens for a reason. nothing is random. dreams, a relationship not working out, and enemy, the shape of the cloud you happen to be looking at in the sky, a stranger who leaves a lasting impression. anything. there are signs places everywhere. its up to you to know how to recognize them, and decide what to make of it. not to say i believe in pre-destination, because is thats the case.... then whats the point of getting out of bed every morning?? instead, i believe that maybe every choice we make changes our destiny, if that makes any sense.. kind of like the butterfly effect.
Everyone has different opinions. i just get comfort in the notion that there is more to life than just empty randomness. make what you want of it.
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